I’ve been blogging for the better part of the last 6 years. I started on a blog named, Him, Them and Me (HTM). That was my first journey into expressing my opinions on the Internet. HTM talked about two life altering events – a seven year relationship that ended in a broken engagement, followed a few weeks later by a cancer diagnosis. As you may imagine, my whole world splintered into a million fragments of pain and despair. It was during those first terrifying weeks that I turned to blogging as a coping mechanism and MMOs as an escape from the thoughts surrounding my fear of dying a slow and painful death, as I’d seen my grandmother, her brother and my mother’s only sibling, my uncle, all suffer through years before my own diagnosis.
Online gaming became an avenue for having fun and adventures while I was stuck in bed or too sick to do more than sit up for a couple hours at a time. Having loved fantasy all my life, fantasy MMOs were the perfect outlet and I quickly indoctrinated all of my children, so that we could share the experience together. I spent a few months trying to forge various unique and interesting memories with them just in case. We played video games, MMOs and board games together. I wrote them each a collection of poems to make sure that they knew how much I love them individually as human beings. I didn’t want their last memories of me, if it turned out that way, to be any more painful than necessary. We gamed. We laughed. And of course, at times we cried.